It started the day after I had my big verbal release with Andy. I noticed a sore spot on the outside of my throat. It felt like a bad bruise on the right side of my neck near my Adam's apple. Flu-like symptoms followed--ear aches, sore neck muscles, achy shoulders, headache. I had barely enough energy to get me past dinner. Bedtime was the thing I most looked forward to every day. It was depressing.
After multiple doctor visits, blood tests and an ultrasound on my thyroid, the doctor said I was anemic. Plus I have nodules on my thyroid (which may have been there a long time) and have some antibodies against my thyroid (WTF?). My theory about the thyroid flare-up is that it was a byproduct of finally expressing my feelings to Andy. In holistic medicine, issues of the throat reflect problems with communication and the right side is symbolic of male energy. Communication with the man in my life has certainly been a challenge for me!
In the last week the pain in my thyroid has just about disappeared. All I've been doing is taking Advil which I was doing all along. I also take an iron pill a day for the anemia. I do have my energy back for the most part. The doctor was not overly concerned about any of the test results. She wants a 3 month follow up.
In the meantime I continue to be plagued with random issues which would be almost comical if listed. It's weird though. As often as I feel under the weather, I rarely get sick. I don't know what's worse. Maybe it would be better to get a full-blown sickness and get it over with...?
This year I really feel my age. And I hate saying that because I do so many things to keep myself healthy. I don't look old, but my body seems to be rebelling. All I can really blame my health challenges on is the stress I've been under in the past year. I hope I can kick this once and for all. I feel like I've been paying way more than my share of dues. I want to get back on top where I belong.
